I decided rather than focus on my personal life, which was in constant stress, I would return to what made me feel good. I always loved painting. The question became, what should I paint and use as my subject matter. I decided to study and paint flowers of all kinds. Why? Flowers are colorful and represent beauty in the natural world. Since my intention was to lift my depression, I felt that using a colorful and beautiful subject matter would help.
Readers, the message: find what you love and do it. I've healed my heart now to the degree that I'm no longer depressed. I've evened out. I feel healthy and awake and vibrant again. I try to paint several times a week. I thinking painting has healed my brain way more than drugs. I took the drugs for a while and I can't even say if they helped or made it worse. Now I'm drug-free and I'm even sleeping well at night.